So, here’s a story
I have chronic insomnia
No, not like the “wow, last night it took me almost an hour to fall asleep! I’m such an insomniac LOL!!!” I mean I seriously cannot sleep without help. I do not think my brain even bothers producing melatonin anymore. There are two ways I’m going to fall asleep on any given night: either I’m completely exhausted from the day, or I use outside help.
Now, my girlfriend has a prescription for Seroquel, which is a very powerful sleeping pill. There’s two reasons why I avoid using it unless I have no other choice, which are that it’s addictive and I happened to use this drug in a suicide attempt a year and a half ago. It’s not a good idea to take this damn drug.
There’s one thing that guarantees me a good, natural, healthy night’s sleep, without traumatizing nightmares every single time. Guess what that is. Fucking. Cannabis.
I deserve a prescription for cannabis. It is, to my researched knowledge, the safest and most effective way to sleep, and I cannot sleep without it very often. That’s not to say that I need it to sleep because I’m addicted. I already couldn’t sleep. Two or three nights a week for most of my life, I have lied perfectly awake through the entire night, tortured, and only managed to fall asleep after the sun came up. It has been one of the worst aspects of my life. I can’t describe how painful it is to wither away night after night with no rest, and then having to worry about a manic episode as a result. I deserve peace from this suffering I’ve faced in silence my entire fucking life. It’s absurd that this wonderful, harmless plant is illegal. It’s absurd that in the state I’m in, I basically have to be terminal to be considered for a prescription. It’s not right.
I deserve to sleep at night, and it just happens that the best method to accomplish this is something that’s prohibitively expensive and illegal
I hate America so much
I just want to sleep